This has to be tough…

Taylor Armstrong experienced a roller coaster of emotions watching the season premiere of The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills on Monday night, RadarOnline.com is exclusively reporting. Taylor is still reeling from the suicide of her estranged husband, Russell Armstrong’s suicide several weeks ago.

Taylor had already been given a viewing copy of the re-edited version of the premiere by Bravo executives several days ago. “Taylor watched the entire episode several days ago. She was very moved by the heartfelt comments that each of the Housewives made regarding Russell’s suicide. There were a lot of tears shed as she watched the episode,” a source close to Taylor tells us.

Taylor decided she was going to watch the episode again as it aired on Monday night. “Taylor didn’t watch the season premiere with any of the Housewives. Kyle, Adrienne and Lisa are in New York City doing press for the show. However, Kyle did call Taylor to check-in with her. Kyle and Taylor are very close. Taylor was very emotional watching it, but she is very supportive of how Bravo is handling Russell’s suicide. Taylor believes that watching the show now will be cathartic and healing for her,” the insider says.

Russell and Taylor’s 5-year-old daughter Kennedy “has started school, and doing well. Taylor is now trying to put her life back together,” the eyewitness said.

Keep your head up Taylor.

via RadarOnline