Fantasia Talks About Affair And Suicide Attempt “I Wanted To Go To Sleep And Just Be At Peace”

- By Bossip Staff

Fantasia is on the road to recovering from her recent suicide attempt and is already talking to the media about what drove her to swallow the bottle of pills. And yes, she spills the beans on her relationship with Antwaun Cook too!

According to RadarOnline reports:

Barely two weeks removed from her suicide attempt, Fantasia Barrino went into great detail about her darkest moments for an upcoming VH1 Behind The Music special.

“I didn’t have any fight in me. I didn’t care about anything. I just wanted out,” Barrino, 26, is quoted as saying in the upcoming special as reported by People. “At that moment, I wanted out. I wanted it to be over with — all of it, all of that [expletive].”

The ex-American Idol winner overdosed on aspirin and sleep medication in her native North Carolina August 10, as her reps said she was overwhelmed by the lawsuit and media attention rising from a relationship she was in with Antwaun Cook, a married man.

In the new interview, Barrino goes in-depth about her actual attempts at self-destruction.

“I just sat in the closet and looked at the mirror and took all the pills in the bottle,” Barrino said. “I wanted to go to sleep and just be at peace. I knew exactly what I was doing. You can’t accidentally take a whole bottle of pills.”

Barrino said she tried to kill herself because she “was tired of people doing me wrong, constantly, over and over again, dealing with my family — my father, dealing with men and their [expletive] — I was tired — my head was hurting me. I was over it.”

She also talks about her relationship with Cook, and the misconceptions she had going into it.

“When I met him, he was separated … [he] wasn’t living in his home,” she said. “He didn’t want to be back with his wife — that is what I was told. I remember waking up in the hospital [and thinking to myself], ‘It didn’t work, I’m still here in this hellhole. Still here with all this drama going on.'”

She said her nurse was an inspirational figure in her time of need.

“My nurse Melanie was a blessing into my life because she didn’t tell me what I wanted to hear,” she said. “She told me what I needed to hear. And she looked at me and said, ‘You gotta get up, and you’ve gotta get out of here, ’cause you haven’t fulfilled your destiny.’ I realized how people end up in the grave. Because that one moment of just breaking or feeling like ‘I can’t, I can’t go on, it’s too heavy.’

“That was somewhere I don’t ever want to go again,” she said.

The singer’s new album, Back To Me, hits stores Tuesday. The VH1 special airs that night at 9/8c.

We hope Fantasia is actually getting some help — in the form of therapy or some form of counseling — because all this free publicity might be great for selling albums, but it can’t be good for getting right… Poor Thang!

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  • I Am Legend (Allergic To Darkies And Big Gurls)

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  • Mrs. Rance

    Just when I was thinking this story had died….

    • ms. whoeva

      stories don’t died people do

  • Ms. November

    Perfectly timed…smh


    Something just doesnt seem right about this whole thing! Sounds kinda like publicity stunt to me. Its puzzling that fantasia went through the lengths of taking pills and even more confusing… This is a women who was bought up in the church. So she had all kinds of help! HMMMMMM????

    • [`~---.._mE_..---~']

      i completely agree!

      something doesn’t seem right….i mean how can u go from trying to kill urself to filming a reality show, doing behind the music interviews, and releasing an album within a matter of days????

      if this were real wouldnt she want to stay out of the spotlight for a little while?!

      sounds like a publicity stunt to me!!!!

  • Seriously

    I am not trying to judge her for what she has or hasn’t done, but while she was so worried about bad media attention and her lawsuit, was she thinking about hanging on for Zion, her daughter?! I think she is worth sticking it out for! Forget what everyone else is saying!

    • BlackBarbie!!!

      Thats what i been thinking this entire time. Her is definitely worth living for.

  • He Aint No Dam Legend He is Legion One of Satan's Baby

    Please tell me you are a white man not no hating as ugly black dude because I am so Allergic 2 you!! LMAO

  • Ike's Beyotch

    Love u Fantasia!!! Get it together baby you are Loved and noone is worth your life!!! I will be getn that CD baby. F@ck the haters!!!

    • ms. whoeva

      right with you cd drop i’m there I don’t put people down I lift them up and I here to support her in every way

  • Shawn of the Living

    Fantasia, please stop talking. Please!!!!!

  • Keep it Real

    Black women say other races of women let men run all over them… that might be true but American black women have to be the most delusional women on earth. You all love LOVING someone who really doesn’t love you. That’s selfish immaturity. How can people KEEP “doing you wrong”? How many times does it take for you to understand actions speak louder than words. When a person shows you who they are believe it.

    That being said we have seen transformations before. See Mary J. At one point she farther gone than Fantasia. Look at her now. 🙂 Life and Maturity changes folks. A good mate can lift you up or bring you down.

    • Tiny

      wow! you kept it real on that one and spoke the truth. There are many black women who refuse to be responsible for their own lives and failures, you can’t blame everything on men all the time.

    • msgirl

      I sooo agree!!! Alot of the times some women live in denial. never thinking perhaps they might be the issue. Had too learn it myself. It isnt easy! but its real!!

  • Bdot

    Ho please.

  • Cantria

    I’m sorry,, but I don’t feel sorry for her.. Do not commit adultery is one of the Ten Commandments.. messing with a married man is a no no!

    • Cathy

      He who is without sin, cast the first stone.

    • Tiny

      finish the rest of the verse, you know the part where he tells her to go and Sin No more. The last time I looked knowing and reciting the ten commandments wasn’t casting a stone, you have to know what a sin looks like in order to not sin.

    • imabeliever

      I agree with you 100%. I am saddened at the fact that she considers herself a Christian. Not only is she in an adulterous relationship, she even tried to take her own life. I just do not want young girls to look up to her behavior and feel that is how a Christ-Like Women should behave. My heart goes out to Mrs.Cook and i pray that she focuses on the Lord to work her Marriage and relationship out. No sin will be left unjudged so i feel for fantasia in that aspect. God hates adultery! and Honors Marriage til DEATH DO THEM APART


    Wow. A’VH-1′ profile just in time for the cd release. I’m anticipating an updated reissue of her book soon to follow. Shaking my head at all this conveniently manufactured drama. Nah, I’m sure it’s all just a coincidence.

  • bobbi

    I thought it was an ‘accident’. I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt but…she never mentioned her daughter. Wow….wow…

  • msbliss

    I’m sorry but this is bullsh*t & I see it. Fannie is going broke & willing to sell her soul 4 more bread. This is so staged & I really hope I’m rite cause if she really, really, tried to do that over a dude when she has a DAUGHTER to raise ima be extra mad! OH FANNIE! I hope your album does well cause you’ve certainly worked 4 it!

    • Nope, you're not serving my soul what it needs to be served

      At least someone on here as some dayum sense. I called bullshyt a while back. You just had a suicide attempt and you testifying already?? Bish stop.

  • latonya

    boo hoo hoo. cry me a fluckin river. tryna save face cause she cant take the chance of this mess affecting her record sales. that’s what the interview is really all about. im not buying it.. the album or the bull.


    I dont feel bad for her, how do u say u were over it and u have a child!!! is this man more important than ur child! smh no man is worth ending ur life over especially wen u have a child to take care of…that is one of the most selfish things a person can do!

  • ssquared

    This chick makes me sick!!! I definately won’t be buying her CD. She discusses me as a black woman. How dare this broad try to take her life because of some man when she has a nine year old daughter that she is responsible for. She’s weak and pathetic. This only conlcudes, to me, that she was doing everything his wife said. This chick thinks of nobody but herself and what she wants. Pathetic @$$ huzzy.

    • Guest

      I think you mean she “disgusts” me. To “discuss” something means to talk, have a conversation.

  • Nya

    What about her daughter? She was gonna kill herself and leave her daughter? That’s so selfish and all over a man too?

  • resurrected

    Her suicide to me was only from the prospective of herself and pain. She mentioned Anwton how he lied to her and told her that he was separated but I don’t believe her because the wife has never stated these claims. Plus she just has there youngest son like two years ago when this affair first started.

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  • chrissy

    The only person that I am seriously concerned about when it comes to Fantasia trying to kill herself is her little girl. She was selfishly thinking about her problems when she should have been thinking of her daughter and what would happen with her. That’s a shame that a woman would allow herself to so caught up (over a man) that she attempts suicide potentially leaving her child behind. And regardless of whether he was married or seperated, she didn’t care about that. She cared that the public started bashing her for it. So at the end of the day she doesn’t have my respect.

  • Well Alright.....

    Fantasia is a liar, and will do ANYTHING for a music career. This is all a publicity stunt, and too perfectly well-timed. Furthermore, if he cheated on his wife for you, chances are that he will cheat on you too. Just wait until Antwaun gets around those upper-tier “real” hollywood entertainers and ballers. He’ll trade Fanny in, in a heart beat. It is a shame that someone has to go to these great lengths to sell an album and a reality tv show…SMDH!!

  • It's me

    come on tashia stop the bs, and tell us the truth, you just trying to get your cd sold and get some ratings for your dumb azz show.

    I know you luv your kid to much to leave her at your own will.

  • It's me

    stop it Tashia, you just want to sell your cd and get ratings for your wack azz show. I know you luv your kid to much to leave her at your own will.

  • ~ChynaPeach~

    How many ppl who want to kill themselves alert someone of what they are doin? The ones who dont want to kill themselves and just want attention. Who knows, maybe she’d be doin her daughter a favor seein that she didnt mention her once even though she mentioned her nurse. Her daughter has what she needs from her mom and thats money. The nurturing she gets from her Grandmother.

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