Is she for real? Megan Fox just did a cover story with Esquire magazine where she does her damndest to sound so deep… and stuff. We knew she was getting her tattoos removed and trying to back off her image as a sex symbol but we had no idea she was so deeply… mystical. Peep some excerpts from Esquire below where she talks about being over her Hollyweird life and feeling powerless as a bombshell:
“I don’t think people understand,” she says. “They all think we should shut the fawk up and stop complaining because you live in a big house or you drive a Bentley. So your life must be so great. What people don’t realize is that fame, whatever your worst experience in high school, when you were being bullied by those ten kids in high school, fame is that, but on a global scale, where you’re being bullied by millions of people constantly.”
“I’ve read the Book of Revelation a million times,” Megan Fox says. “It does not make sense, obviously. It needs to be decoded. What is the dragon? What is the pro****ute? What are these things? What is this imagery? What was John seeing? And I was just thinking, What is the Antichrist?”
“When war breaks out in the Holy Land, like it is right now, if that is a sign of the immediate end times, then where are the other signs? Is it possible that it’s the Internet or fame itself or celebrity?”
“I felt powerless in that image,” she says. “I didn’t feel powerful. It ate every other part of my personality, not for me but for how people saw me, because there was nothing else to see or know. That devalued me. Because I wasn’t anything. I was an image. I was a picture. I was a pose.”
Hit the flip for another shot of Megan in her post-birth glory and read about her Pentecostal upbringing.
Fox began speaking in tongues around the age of eight, when she attended a Pentecostal church in Tennessee.
“The energy is so intense in the room,” she says, “that you feel like anything can happen. They’re going to hate that I compare it to this, but have you ever watched footage of a Santeria gathering or someone doing voodoo? You know how palpable the energy is? Whatever’s going on there, it’s for real.”
Others in her situation have found release in booze and pills. Fox has found hers in church.
“I have seen magical, crazy things happen. I’ve seen people be healed. Even now, in the church I go to, during Praise and Worship I could feel that I was maybe getting ready to speak in tongues, and I’d have to shut it off because I don’t know what that church would do if I started screaming out in tongues in the back.
“It feels like a lot of energy coming through the top of your head — I’m going to sound like such a lunatic — and then your whole body is filled with this electric current. And you just start speaking, but you’re not thinking because you have no idea what you’re saying. Words are coming out of your mouth, and you can’t control it. The idea is that it’s a language that only God understands. It’s the language that’s spoken in heaven. It’s called ‘getting the Holy Ghost.’ ”
“I can’t stand pills. I don’t like drinking. I don’t like feeling out of control,” she explains. “I have to feel like I’m in control of my body. And I know what you’re thinking, Then why would I want to go to church and speak in tongues?
“You have to understand, there I feel safe. I was raised to believe that you’re safe in God’s hands. But I don’t feel safe with myself.”
SMH. Not feeling safe with herself? That can’t be a good thing for a woman who has a newborn that just fired her nanny (after reading about the NY nanny that killed two kids).
It gets weirder though.
She would much rather be an archeologist exploring the ancient ruins of Israel and Egypt. “I feel like there’s stuff literally buried there and buried where the Maya were,” she says. Ancient aliens who gave rise to ancient civilizations on earth. “I would like to uncover the secrets of the universe. In my fantasy.”
And soon she is off, no longer stuck on this couch in this basement afraid of everything outside.
“I believe in all of this stuff. I believe in all of it….
“I like believing. I believe in all of these Irish myths, like leprechauns. Not the pot of gold, not the Lucky Charms leprechauns. But maybe was there something in the traditional sense? I believe that this stuff came from somewhere other than people’s imaginations….
“We should all believe in leprechauns. I’m a believer….
“You and I are humans, this is not all of it. This cannot be, because we are so disappointing….
“Films don’t hold the answers I’m looking for….
“Would you not be so much more interested in finding out that bigfoot existed than in watching a really good movie? …
“I believe in aliens….
“I am childlike in my spirit, and I want to believe in fairy tales.. .
“Loch Ness monster — there’s something to it….
“There’s the Bell Witch…
“What distracts me from my reality is bigfoot. They are my celebrities.”
Seriously? Should we be worried???
Photo Credit: Esquire/Sante D’Orazio