Chrisette Michele Reveals Struggle After Trump Performance
Needless to say, it’s been a bit of a rough year for Chrisette Michele. After performing at Trump’s inauguration, which much of the industry and millions of fans letting her know that’s not something they felt she needed to do.
After doing the show, not even meeting Trump and making this big “point” she spoke of, and gettin indignant with everyone about her decision…not much else was heard from Chrisette for the remainder of 2017.
As it turns out, she suffered privately for the rest of the year, fighting depression, miscarrying a baby, and being dropped from her label. She went into DEEP detail about what happened to her on Instagram:
People ask me how I’m so positive after all I’ve been thru….. When you’re laying in bed naked, next to a bottle of Bacardi and Xanex. When you wear pajamas Morning and night. When you don’t pick up the phone for weeks, months. When you’re afraid to look at social media.
I know I’ve sown positive seeds. I know I’ve lifted people. I know I’ve been a part of community activations and black empowerment. When a community sticks its middle finger up at you and completely forgets everything you’ve ever done, you’re worthless… You’ve just spent ten years kicking your own ass to be there for everyone and suddenly no one is there for you? I don’t need to be here…. And when you’ve drank so much you can’t see clearly. And when your speech is so slurred you just stop speaking. You hope you don’t wake up.
Thing is. I know God. He was kind enough to soften the blow. I promise you, I felt Him cover me like a blanket. I told Him I was out of control. I told Him I was having thoughts about leaving and not finishing all He’s called me to. He listened. There in lied my therapy. Music was written in this prayer closet of sorts. Dialogue with God.
Call me crazy, but it’s better than being dead. There’s no one who will make me apologize for shouting from the roof tops that I have the overcoming story of a powerful and #StrongBlackWoman
Chrisette says that once she was over her alcohol and Xan phase, she went for intense workouts and eating disorder tactics to control her emotions. In the midst of all this, she says she suffered a miscarriage, that she saw as a physical manifestation of the country’s divisiveness….
Now, be forewarned, Chrisette included a pretty graphic image of bloody miscarraige tissue on a napkin. So swipe at your own risk.
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