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Rah Ali Breaks Her Silence After Losing Baby

Rah Ali has been mourning the loss of her premature newborn since May 26th. Now, she’s deciding to share details about it with the public.

In an exclusive interview with PEOPLE, Rah details the timeline of events that went down the day she, unfortunately, lost her daughter.

“I called my husband and he rushed home,” she tells PEOPLE. “The ambulance came and they took me to the hospital. That’s when they told me that my cervix was completely open and that my water had broken.”

Rah added that she named the baby girl Sanaa, before she even went into labor and she would talk to her.

“Every single day, I would get up and feel her kicking and I would talk to her,” Ali says. “Not like a baby, but like a person. I would say, ‘What are we eating this morning?’ Or, ‘Okay, you’re getting agitated and feisty. I know you’re hungry and I’m going to eat something.’ “

Before the tragedy, the mother was planning to share photos from her maternity shoot with the world as a way to announce her baby. Over the weekend she decided to share that moment as well.

Here she is hugging her pregnant belly.

Hit the flip for more from Rah detailing her fateful labor story.

She also discusses whether or not her ex-friend Remy Ma has reached out to her.

Rah on how she expected her labor to be:

“Every day you count down and see [your due date] getting closer and closer. At five months, I hadn’t even come to the realization that it was going to happen. It was the worst experience of my life.”

Rah also revealed how she spent her final moments with baby Sanaa.

“I held her … and she slept in the room with us until the morning when they took her away. I felt like I lost my soul.Our bond was so strong. Maybe because God knew I would never be able to experience it … I just felt so connected to her.”

PEOPLE inquired about Rah and Remy’s current relationship, being that the estranged friends both suffered losses of children and she said THIS:

“I actually haven’t heard from her but I don’t have any expectations, nor do I think she is in any way expected to reach out to me during this time,” Ali says of Remy. “It would be ridiculous to even think that. That’s a buried relationship. I truly mean that respectfully.”

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