Rah Ali Opens Up About Premature Baby Loss, Shares Unreleased Maternity Photos

Rah on how she expected her labor to be:

“Every day you count down and see [your due date] getting closer and closer. At five months, I hadn’t even come to the realization that it was going to happen. It was the worst experience of my life.”

Rah also revealed how she spent her final moments with baby Sanaa.

“I held her … and she slept in the room with us until the morning when they took her away. I felt like I lost my soul.Our bond was so strong. Maybe because God knew I would never be able to experience it … I just felt so connected to her.”

PEOPLE inquired about Rah and Remy’s current relationship, being that the estranged friends both suffered losses of children and she said THIS:

“I actually haven’t heard from her but I don’t have any expectations, nor do I think she is in any way expected to reach out to me during this time,” Ali says of Remy. “It would be ridiculous to even think that. That’s a buried relationship. I truly mean that respectfully.”